my body feels like it is
about to fall completely
apart

and i simply hope it stays together
for one [or two] more circus lessons
and an evening voiceover class

after all that
it is welcome to
fail

because friday is the day
i have a two hour massage booked
and hopefully
hopefully
hopefully
that can put me back together again

[or at least break my body apart
in such a way
that fitting myself back
goes the right
way]