muscle spasms
distressing to me
far more than pain probably would be

i deal with pain all the time

i don’t deal with my shoulder/side trying to
hop right out of my skin
without my permission
like it’s an angry little goblin

and as i stress about the spasms
[which may be caused partially by stress]
i also feel my eye twitch
and a single muscle in my leg
throb
once
twice
threatening a third
but no more as of now

and i’m worried about what it means
if it’s caffeine or dehydration or lack of nutrients
or lack of electrolytes or lack of vitamins or
pure stress vibes or
a lack of restful sleep or
a mix of all the above
or something i haven’t even considered

what the fuck does it mean?

and how the fuck can i
stop it???