August 8, 2023

i feel as though i’ve
run a mile in my mind and
i still can’t seem to find
any kind
of through line
or success in a poem of mine

perhaps this is the type of morning to
hide under the sheets until
i feel human once
again

July 19, 2023

ever write poetry
with a rhyme scheme in your mind
from an un-written line,
one you decided wasn’t worth the fight/
the force of putting it in,
but the next line rhymes so fittingly
that you insert it just so —
and when you read the flow
you still speak it as though
that first line is still there
(you just don’t say it out loud)
and it all fits together
with phrases in your mind —
and you wonder
if a reader
who isn’t just you
could feel that it flows,
even though the flow
may not be as obvious
as it is to you…

anyone else do that too?

July 15, 2023

giving up on
one contest
for a guaranteed
expression
of self

giving up on
a new book club
(at least this month)
for connection
with spouse
with pup
with cat
with friend

giving up on
a couple of mornings
of poem-tidings
for sharing
my emotions
when they’re ready
to be written about
when they’re ready
to be shared
when they’re ready
when i’m ready
when
i’m

i am

July 11, 2023

stop writing
for purpose
stop writing
for audience
stop writing
for rules
and structure
and rhyme scheme
and
just write
for expression
for emotion
for you
for you
[for me]

[i write for me
let that be what it will be]

July 3, 2023

i have so much more i want to say
but my brain won’t focus itself in a way
that i can parse through
what i’ve said yet
and not

so i suppose i’ll wait until tomorrow
(or maybe just until this day
is through)

and try again.

June 20, 2023

stuck behind a computer keyboard
when i simply wish i could hook up some sort of cord
to my brain and let it leak poetry
more real/raw/strange/
honesty
might not consistently be
but it’s consistently
me