can i
will i
work without warmup
can i
must i
do the writing to do the work
can i
should i
be a lone ranger in my lifetime
can i
do i
do anything
i could
poem a day
July 24, 2023
unawake
today of all days
of driving hours and hours
and caring for puppies
and doing adult things
and talking to fathers
and writing poetries
when my eye just wants to rest
away from screens or intensive lookings —
maybe tomorrow will be
less painful
in the iris
July 23, 2023
it is
unfortunate
that the lantern flies are so
dangerous
when they grow up
because
as tiny speckled hopping things
they’re kind of a little bit cutie
but i don’t need their
thousands and thousands of eggs
spurning
winged creatures
toxic to my native beings
bringing other toxic insects after it
protect
the natural
ecosystem
prevent
invasive
species
July 22, 2023
the nerves
of all this past week
seem to melt away like butter
the morning of the show
just because
i’m so tired
and achey
and sleepy
and in pain
that i don’t even have the capacity
to feel much
of anything else
…hooray?
July 21, 2023
have i pushed myself
too far
too hard?
will i last
until
just past
the show?
can my body
ever
recover?
or am i making a big deal
out of this body
i have no idea how to deal with?
July 20, 2023
maybe
the reason i feel
my emotions take over my whole self
or
my brain can convince me of untruths
or
my body doesn’t understand how to body
is not because
they are all fighting for control
but because
they are fighting
for connection
i am in the center
my self is the combination
of heart
and mind
and physical being
and if the three can be
together
as one
maybe i won’t feel so lost
and separated
and not
myself
July 19, 2023
ever write poetry
with a rhyme scheme in your mind
from an un-written line,
one you decided wasn’t worth the fight/
the force of putting it in,
but the next line rhymes so fittingly
that you insert it just so —
and when you read the flow
you still speak it as though
that first line is still there
(you just don’t say it out loud)
and it all fits together
with phrases in your mind —
and you wonder
if a reader
who isn’t just you
could feel that it flows,
even though the flow
may not be as obvious
as it is to you…
anyone else do that too?
July 18, 2023
tho no one
likes
the un-airconditioned train
i still smile to myself
every time a new group enters
and makes the same
“awww, nahhh/no!”
when they realize
the car they’ve chosen
will only increase
the nyc heat
it’s the little moments that show —
we are more alike than we are different
July 17, 2023
little puppy chirps
of whining
of attention-grabbing
of trying to get comfortable
on an uncomfortable leg
and a cone-surrounded head
in a tiny cage
trying to contain
all this
big
puppy
energy
July 16, 2023
sharing
is always scary
sharing poetry
is a fright on its own merit
sharing poetry
with someone you respect
and want to think of you
as cool
and creative
and unique
is
something
kipventures 