December 8, 2025

kip playing with music
a whole set up here at our
kitchen table

and something in me wants to create

is it music?
am i ready to hear my own voice
echoing back from me
via vocoder at least?

or am i more in the physical scheme
and want to cut and trim and sew and see
what kind of creation i can make with
my own two hands

or am i finally ready to write that book
i’ve been threatening to write
forever and a half

or is it the video series
or a play
or silly skits
on social media
[probably not that last one
if my mental health is any key
or indication, having done so well
these past few months
without
that curse looming over me
via my phone…]

[who knows]
[who knows]

April 17, 2025

Kip making music
on an OP-1
on top of a wooden table
with metal bars
supporting
running across to where i rest my foot,
and even through my thick bootie
i can feel the bass rumble through
into my bones

and i love it

April 8, 2025

finish up these pages
so the bagel can be eaten
so the laundry can be started
so the nap can be taken
so the cat meds can be obtained
so the lyra can be flown on
so the massage can be gotten
and so i can come back home
and be lonely
but not alone
[because these sweet animals
are my greatest buddies

besides my spouse]

February 5, 2025

this poem will
[likely]
take the place of the poem that was supposed to go
on my silly poetry blog
yesterday

and though i am not writing it
on the date it says at the top
it is still a poem i am posting here
[and i did, technically, write poetry yesterday
just not quite enough
and nothing i felt was
whole
enough
to post]

and what did i do yesterday
that prevented me from writing
all 300 of my poetry words
and taking the time to post
my silly blog post writings?

i had conversations
with my kip
the love of my life
as we enjoyed a distraction from
morning everyday routines
and the terror that is happening everywhere
while we dealt with the terror of
bodies
not cooperating
and puppies
asking to play
[that one’s not a terror though,
that one there is
absolutely delightful]
and just had a bit of a reset
with communication
and a bagel
and a fig bar

so that’s what i did yesterday…

what will happen today?

January 30, 2025

video game music
and pondering strange dreams
and trying to hold the countdown
to the hour after next
still
so i can have some more chill morning time
with my kip before they need to leave
again [this time into the city]
and i need to go upstairs
and talk about my
~feelings~

[ugh]