November 1, 2026

all the clocks are wrong,
i can feel the chill in the air
even from the indoors,
and the sun has gone to bed
so
damn
early

it’s the season
of daylight savings time
it’s the season
of colder and colder and colder days
[and even colder nights]
it’s the season
of a depression with a name
and a reasoning —
a clear cause to its effect
and yet
i can’t do anything to change it

it’s the season
of sometimes magic
and coziness
and cuddling

it’s the season of accomplishment
from the inside

it’s the season
i always simply try
to survive

but what if,
this season,
i try to
blossom
and
thrive?

September 24, 2026

i am not ready for fall

i’m still trying to wear summer outfits
in 46 degrees
and shivering

i am not ready for fall

the night comes too early
and i simply want to
sleep

i am not ready for fall

the semester started with
a bang
and has yet to fizzle to something seeming
comfortable/doable for longer than looking
week
by week

i am not ready for fall

physically
mentally
emotionally

but something inside me says
it’s time for fall
some unknown piece that i have yet to identify
a cyclical part
or a section connected
deeper to the earth than i could have expected
could have written about before the fall
overtook me

but

i am not really for fall

and yet
in at least one way
i think i am ready for fall

and i’ll rely on that readiness
to lead me into the darkness
of autumn to winter
to too busy and too cold to do anything
to discomfort and cycles and sadness
so that i can be oh so ready when spring comes
to pick me back up

and who knows

maybe something exciting will come this season

we won’t know until we go

so
okay
i suppose
i am [somewhat] ready for fall