it’s funny how gender-affirming sparkly nail polish can be
for me
for my estimation of in-between genders/
outside of the binary/
erring towards chaos/
creative/
forgoing gender
for individual
whatever/
in that mode
sparkles
on my nails
feels so
right
trans
March 2, 2024
locking eyes
trans on trains
but it’s more than
‘i see you, you see me too’
it’s the
‘i might know you
from our silly rectangular social boxes’
and lo and behold,
check the algorithm —
there you are
and there i am, not so much sliding
but stumbling into your dms
saying, ‘let’s be friends’
[and blaming my spouse in the process]
and i’m too nervous about awkward connections
to check the reply
just yet
but i do know you have
replied
and i think that’s enough connection
for this socially anxious
ball of rainbows.
[but now the spouse wants to know…]
December 30, 2023
seeing my
[zombie]/[dead] name
doesn’t necessarily bring me pain
it’s really just the expectation of
family
or spam mail of each variety
[either way, i kind of just roll my eyes
and get on with my day]
May 19, 2023
theorizing
contemplating
mind-experimenting
camp
villains
trans
queer-coded
self-determination
everything’s a performance
let’s just have all the fun we can
[and someday tell our own stories
out
loud]
March 31, 2023
i feel so sick
and sick & tired
of Visibility being a trap
instead of the freedom it feels like inside
i cry
and march
and shout
and educate
and give
and sign
and send
and plead
but it will never lead
to anything
if they don’t see us
as worthy
i’m safe
here
in my own Visibility
but i can’t help
but feel
for those in
tennessee
and texas
and arkansas
and mississippi
and south carolina
and virginia
and wyoming
and oklahoma
and washington
and south dakota
and kentucky
and…looking at the maps, i think i could say every state
minus my own home
and it would be true
how can the land of the free
be the land of the only free to be
cis/straight/able-bodied/male
…oh, of course, because that’s how it has always been
and money will always weigh more than
anyone’s life or livelihood
protect Trans kids
protect all kids
because at this point
who knows who gets to be an adult
unless they are literally
a gun.
December 31, 2022
a dreary
rainy
new year’s eve
no big celebration
but maybe that’s what we need
to look at the past
and get excited for the future
and chill in the house with crafts and puzzles
writing reviews
picking poetry
performing
later
as long as i’m with my Kip
i’m happy
[though i’d be extra enthused
if next year we continued
our old tradition
of out-of-the-country travel
for the holiday times]
so long, 2022
[come see me bid farewell to the year with some poetry of my own via Zoom at 7pm Eastern:
https://www.eventbrite.com/e/new-years-eve-they-them-mayhem-tickets-419529813967 ]
December 28, 2022
maybe i
will continue to buy
certain girly styles
just to get the high i get
by giving away the things
i rarely wear
to trans-femmes early in their transitions
gender affirming wear
from gender diverse friends—
giving gives me so many fantastic feels
December 22, 2022
there is a relief
from being friends
with trans folks
i never have to worry
if they talk about me
what pronouns would be used
if there would be eye-rolls at a a correction
it’s just nice
to know
i’m respected
November 20, 2022
i wrote a snarky poem
for Trans Week of Awareness
telling y’all to be aware of me:
my gender, chaotic
my joy, revolutionary.
and still i talked about our siblings who are silenced
through legislation
through societal constraints
through direct, abhorrent violence–
but for an act so violent
to be what wakes me up
on Trans Day of Remembrance…
it just feels too
too
too too
much
i have no conclusion to this poem
Stop
Killing
Us.
August 13, 2022
to write
or not to write
on this day
of performing
my own poetry
live
for the very first time
that sure is the question
~~~
can coffee
really do for my creativity
what it already does for my
comfort
and
awake-ness
and routine-building?
~~~
Oven Puppy
appears in reflections
all over our walk
and the puppy
(our puppy, Computer the Puppy)
wants to know:
is Oven Puppy nice?
how did Oven Puppy even get into our oven?
why does Oven Puppy always mimic Computer’s movements/
barks/
danger tail-poof?
how did Oven Puppy get inside the college windows at night?
and will Oven Puppy ever come out to play?
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The show is today, virtual, 2pm Eastern, and free
for tickets: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/321018253237
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