just a quick
little poem
today
before i run
and do things
all day
[well, thing,
one main thing
throughout the day
a load-in, tech, and opening
all in one day
today will be
a very long day
hence the short-ish poem
to start the
day]
just a quick
little poem
today
before i run
and do things
all day
[well, thing,
one main thing
throughout the day
a load-in, tech, and opening
all in one day
today will be
a very long day
hence the short-ish poem
to start the
day]
is there going to be a time
sometime
soon
where we look at all this newfangled technology
as so tragically
backwoods
backwards
and slow
it’s gotta be
it’s gonna happen
that’s just the way of the world
but i want to know if there was ever a time
where we looked upon the new thing
sometime
later
and felt it wasn’t as great a thing
as it was originally made out to be
there have always been
moral panics about
well, anything and everything really
when people read books too much
they weren’t paying attention
to life
and living
when people spent too much time on the phone
the connection was cheapened
music
is against
godliness
etc
etc
etc
but i feel so many people my age
are looking at the internet
not as bringing something that haunts us as a hysteria
but bringing with it actual
worse
life
living
[and it is those of us who were there in the digital trenches,
who thought the internet was the dawn of a
great new age,
who extolled the powers of social media
for keeping us in contact with people
we very likely would have lost touch with,
we are the ones having doubts
second guessing our own excitement.]
[i feel like the only comparable moment would be
a failed city/state
with a governmental system
that didn’t do
what it said it would]
[but then, wouldn’t those who wanted it
dig their heels in
harder
as the numbers and examples and proof
overwhelmed the senses;
haven’t people always clung harder to the “facts”
that are provably
wrong
with
every
moment
of
proof?]
so what age are we in?
or am i in the minority
as i sit here, annoyed with and worried about
ai
and the state of the internet in general?
but believe me when i say
i do not
want to go back to a “simpler time”
moving forward is good
often technology is great
it is the shareholders and capitalism and consumerism that’s making these things
so terrible
upon release
and as they
continue to
exist
[the vulture class just gives a bad name
to vultures]
what actually was the noise
that connected us to the internet
in the early/mid nineties?
was it the future screaming at us
to maybe think better of it?
was it our computers
being used for something they hadn’t thought
they’d be used for
and that stretch and strain on the inner workings
just needed to exhale a little
in a digital-type-sound?
or was it simply a pre-made set of
futuristic sounds
composed for our
soon-to-be
post-apocalyptic
future?
[i suppose i could ask kip
and they may know…]
[but i don’t think i’m going to ask right now…
maybe in a few minutes — i’m still trying to think of
other possibilities it could have meant]
technology
impacts us all
in different ways
for some of us, the convenience is worth it
and we wouldn’t have the life we have
or the friends we’ve made
without it
for some of us, there has been more bad created than good
and the stress and hassle of all the social media
and expectations and designed obsolescence
it just makes us
furious
and then there are some of us
who would love to love technology
but technology just doesn’t love us —
we are always the one person in the system where
errors perpetually occur, or
those technological wonders we hear about just won’t work
when we’re in the room,
and the minute we touch an item
it is broken without
explanation
[you may think there must be a logical explanation
for this curse, but let me tell you, as the person with it,
with a spouse who works in computer technology as an engineer,
has seen it first hand, and whose mind was changed,
it absolutely is real]