‘you’ve already survived all your worst days’
could be so helpful
so hopeful
but to me/to my always overthinking brain, i wonder if i haven’t
if i’m somewhere deep in my mind, and i’m actually unsurviving,
or if that just means that the ones i have survived
have been pieces of cake compared to
what’s coming
what’s coming,
and also, i tend to compare
i try not to, but it’s what my brain does
automatically
without me asking
and my worst day felt so bad in my mind
but there are others who have had to deal with external worsts
and they are going through that literally daily
as my country continues to aid the perpetrators
sending money and explosives to a country
that literally doesn’t need it
so why are we still providing
pieces of other people’s
worst days
worst days
worst
days
?
survive
October 5, 2022
there is no moral
superiority
between remembering daily chores
and remembering monthly bills
we are all just trying to
survive
[i must remind myself]
January 1, 2022
for the last
several
years
Kip and i have made
no new years resolutions,
we’ve simply made
new years goals.
and i think
for this
twenty twenty, too
we are just aiming
to survive.