simulation

May 9, 2025

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perhaps
i should
accept
that the world didn’t actually
end
all the times it felt
like it did

not at the end of 1999
not in 2001
not in 2005
not in 2008 or 2012 or even 2020
so perhaps
living life
as if it’s not a secret simulation
or a fever dream
but something to make the most of
would be a smarter goal

[but that’s also so much scarier
and i need to figure out
how much push gets me going
and how much puts me in
a damn near catatonic state
of straight up fear of missing out
on everything]

December 6, 2021

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a glitch in the system
(nah, just the page/the app/the writing)
and a glitch in my body
(nah, just my sleep)
and a glitch in the world
(well, that one might be true?)

(ok, not really, but still…)

(ok, there are way too many conspiracy theorists
believing things without evidence
that i cannot abide associating myself with them,
so no, i don’t actually truly think this universe/world/life is a simulation,
but
if that were to be what was revealed
at the end of it all,
it really wouldn’t surprise me)