June 26, 2026

7:13 am

any thirteen gives me joy
gives me hope
gives me strength
gives me
smiles

it can be the date
or the time
or a number just randomly up somewhere
but
every time
i see a thirteen
anywhere
i smile just a little wider than before
and think to myself
‘maybe
just maybe
i can keep going’

[if i live past 100
i only only want to if i can get to
113]

June 21, 2026

here
is all the dog fur
you could ever want

and then some

and then some more
and more and more and more and more
until it’s everywhere
until you’re sick of it
until you’re breathing it in and sneezing it out
every morning
every night
until you realize your wardrobe has shifted to black
right around the time you got a white and tan dog
and her fur is everywhere
you try to hug her
it’s on your body
you try to fold laundry
whoops, you placed that shirt on the bed
which is where she sleeps
which is covered in dog fur
you try to cuddle up with a blanket
spend time with your spouse
walk around your house
and you
your clothes
your body
your socks
are so coated in dog fur
if you happen to walk in stocking feet
elsewhere
you leave footprints of dog fur
where ever you pass

but this dog is so good
you wouldn’t give her up
for anything

[but maybe we could give her a bath
every once in a while…]

June 29, 2024

wounds
from circus
are worse than bruises
because they are usually burns
and they continue to make me squirm
in showers to clean them
and days afterwards
if they need band-aids
and then, finally, when they’ve stopped looking like
peeled flesh
and grossness,
and the healing process has set well in
the itch
is all-consuming
and unimaginably annoying
and because i usually never get them this bad
i can forget this stage
but right now
this healing thing on my ankle
is all my conscious can think about
and how much i want to scratch my whole skin off
but then the process would just start
all over again…

December 6, 2022

precariously balanced devises
plugged in to cords that show all the wires
on top of older machines
and books and unlit candles and things
i feel like the quintessential
adhd
disaster

but hey
it does
work