sleeping better
with only one dog
but damn do i miss
all those cuddles
~~~
let’s
get back
into the habit
we’ve established
all these days
k?
~~~
is it nerves
is it too much food
(is it too little?)
(or is there something
actually wrong
wth me?)
the questions
of a saga
of a never-ending
stomach ache
it’s funny how
both in real life
and on screen gaming
all my plants are
over-watered
(though
to be fair
if we had a more
humidity-full house,
i wouldn’t feel the need
because the moisture
would be
in the air)
(i have no explanation
for the video
game
plants)
i’d just like to write
the short poems
with the huge payoffs
a la Rupi Kaur
the heart wants
what the heart wants
but the brain and body can be
so
suspicious
lazy
resistant
ennui-ed
[a poem about why i’ve wanted to sew
for literal months
but haven’t done a stitch]
sleepy puppies
and writing spouses
sneaky cats
and work on houses
long-ass days
and even longer nights
when there is no internet to help
with career or comfort plights
a twenty-first century struggle bus
~~~
how is it that
when i skip one day of writing
i feel like i’ve lost
every fibre of creativity
and every ounce of self-discipline
and every last little thing i learned
over the past near year and a half?
~~~
one more poem
one more rhyme
simply to get myself
better in my mind
to see the time
and time again roll
to see myself
as i always wanted to be
and to finally see me
as i was meant to be
futuristically
and fully
they say the cello is the instrument
most like the human voice
but
whenever i listen to violins
play long, extended phrases
i always catch myself
holding my breath
as if i could sing the line
too
~~~
how is our puppy
so damn cute
and precious
and calm
when she’s sleepy
and so adorably hassle-y
and damn destructive
when she’s hyper-awake?
~~~
short poems
small amounts
because today
my belly says
‘no’
writing about nothing
is better than
writing
nothing
little things
little words
send my mind
reeling
a stress
a little baby stress
is turning into a huge, monstrous, mountainous stress
and not because it’s actually getting bigger
but because i’m waiting longer
to deal with it
[when will i learn?]
~~~
but that’s the thing, isn’t it, about humans and stress–
different folks deal with different stressors
in different ways
~~~
maybe
just maybe
i might
just need
a nap
[and maybe
possibly
potentially
that’s part
of the
problem???]
ugh
being human…
bring the fear
down
trust in the
universe
will we be
happier?
will we be
better?
kipventures 