June 19, 2024

i work so much better when i have a project
than when i’m left to my own devices
i can’t escape feeling
like i have something i should be doing
but i can’t get off my ass to try, either.

June 17, 2024

stress
and apprehension
and it not feeling like
an actual opening
and the stories we tell ourselves
about ourselves
when i tell myself these stories
it’s to try to solidify
who i am
because i have no idea
i have no plan

~~~

does one good line
make a poem?

is this my style/my curse?

~~~

my poems are making little to no sense to me
this morning
but i’m still writing them
i’m still dilligently typing
words and phrases as they come
hoping to find some meaning
some
time
soon

June 5, 2024

ponderings in a morning
filled with things and contemplations
and many many many words
and here inside my bubble i’m safe
i’m safe i’m safe
and being grateful isn’t being boastful
[i have to remind myself of that
many days/most days/every day]