those who
decide to
or decide not to
have actually made a decision

those of us who
stay in the middle
are doomed to
stay in the middle

~~~

it’s always interesting
to be clued into
another family’s drama.

i’ve only ever been privy
to a few sets of families
but whenever it happens
i feel like an uninvited audience member
to a preview
where the actors aren’t ready
and break character
more than they stay in

and no matter how much i try to tell myself
they’ve invited me here
i’m a part of the family now
i’ve married in
legally
i’m in

i still can’t help
but feel as though
i’m
intruding.

~~~

now i’m becoming worried
of writing too much
of being too real
too honest
for this little experimental experiment blog

when
when
when
did i switch from feeling too fake
and too impersonal
and wanting to be more honest?

[is it just the subject matter i’m worried about???]