pretend
you’re a regular human
with normal wants and desires
fears and loves
and then think about your situation

but that’s just acting, isn’t it?

i’ve spent so much time in my head
with the what-ifs
and the ‘how would i play that
if i were in that
situation?’
and the
trying to observe my own responses —
but what if my responses are so out of the ordinary
that i’ve been trying to act
with my own feelings
in a way that is
disingenuous
to the human condition?

[i know, i know,
i’m human,
but damn, does it not feel that way
a whole damn lot of the time]