can’t let the creature
on the other end of the line
hear the fear in your voice
or they’ll know you’re one of those
millennials
scared of a simple phone call
and then they may
ATTACK
and who knows
what’ll happen
after that
[your imagination and
catastrophizing is very good
at making up the worst
in that situation, so you
kind of know, you
kind of know]
i don’t know how to stop my kip
from staring at their phone
reading the terrible news
and feeling worse
and worse
and worse
as the hours go by
because
if left to my own devices
i would stare at my phone
and watch videos of
on the ground tragedies
and feel worse
and worse
and worse
as the hours go by
and neither of us feeling worse
will change the things happening
halfway across the world
or right in our own backyard
we need to fill our cups
and have the hope
and energy
to put forth change
that will help
others
and ourselves
but
how
how
how
when everything feels so important
and hopeless
in the palms of our
hands?
i can do it
i can reach out
i can cold call
and cold email
and cold submit
because i won’t learn
what i’m doing ‘wrong’
until i at least
put myself out there
and try
