observer

September 2, 2026

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strange dreams about
abandoned houses connected to ours
about
strangers and mta drivers trying to make
a better plan for other folks in the area
about
kip trying to protect me from certain things
and then acting like me when faced with
other things
about
observing and assessing and waiting to make conclusions
about getting out of places quickly
and about
my father
just hanging out

all somehow connected
and completely disconnected
kind of like the two buildings being dreamed about

oh, and also about
nature
reclaiming
in beautiful ways

November 22, 2021

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the joyful teasing
the conviviality of being around each other
the discussing
planning
problem-solving
the sharing, watching, playing
the family.

~~~

observation;
my downfall
[/upfall?]

~~~

can i
just
be good at acting
[on my own]
without needing such guidance
to stop overthinking?

[please???]

May 12, 2021

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combing
through etsy
to find
a piece
of indigenous art
of wood
for the five year anniversary
that suits
us both

~~~

wow
yesterday i was so inspired
to write and contemplate
the original monologue
and today
i am not feeling it
at
all.

(but maybe i should just try anyway)

~~~

(and why do i feel the need to decompress after acting class
whether i do well or not
whether i achieve any sort of catharsis?)
(i still feel a bit like an observer
an outsider…
when will that end and i can feel truly
part
of something?)