coffee
waiting for me
in the fridge
getting cooler and cooler
until it’s cold enough for me to drink
and feel it icing me
awake
[i wish i would have remembered to do this
last night, but the delayed anticipation is
a strange and new feeling
and i love feeling new
things]
to take the train
or to try and drive
and how early do i
need to make this
decision?
[i’ve been deleting videos off my phone
so i can
download an app if needbe
but i
am so stressed
by new experiences
but also
also
also
i love them
so…
how dare my own psyche
be
this damn way]
pondering
teaching
directing
improvising
trying new things
[and not too new new things]
and still
maybe
sewing
and writing
and reading
and playing
and flying
and learning
and living
kipventures 