January 7, 2024

math jazz
leaves your mind
expecting
exactly
what it
isn’t

~~~

i’ve written so much
of
nothing this morning
and
i can’t seem to stop
nor
do i feel satisfied with anything i’ve done
so
i guess i’ll keep writing and writing and writing
until
i feel some sort of closer closure, somewhere.

~~~

do i not want to review my older works because i think they’ll be worse,
or do i not want to delve deep because i know myself and my tendency
to get all wrapped up, bundled in the blanket of the past, wondering
what if what if what if, until i find myself unable to experience the
presence of the
present
moment
?

December 16, 2023

gnome music
for after your words are done writing themselves
but you can’t come back to reality
quite
yet

[and there’s still a cat on your lap,
so there’s no way you could leave here
anyway]

August 7, 2023

rain pouring/
pounding
on our little roof,
waking me up
long before the sound
of our collective alarms,
but lulling me into
a false sense of security
that i would be able to
fall gently asleep
once more

instead the internet/
and uneven droplets/
and awkward room temperature/
and brightness sneaking in
from a gentle sunrise
outside
kept me up since 5

and now
at 8:30
i’m downing this coffee
just to stay
alive

(but at least the weather is as spooky as our morning music)

June 23, 2023

hungry
worried
early
morning
mundane and
not so mundane

worried
so worried
still hungry

~~~

calm morning
of stress

wanting
less

of the drama that comes from
this little broken puppy pup

but still
we’d rather
have her
all torn ligaments
and fractured bones
and menacing hassles

than not

~~~

it’s so strange to hear
simple
calm
piano
in the morning

i’m used to
acid jazz
and electronic house
and more chaotic sounds

to wake up to

but the calm simplicity
seems to be helping me
find more in my poetry

(and harmonizes well with a sighing puppy)

June 2, 2023

i feel sixteen again
the air around me tastes louder
brighter
coloring with so much
i can’t help but squint

perhaps it’s the neural pathways
refusing to trim
perhaps it’s the music
and late late nights inspiring
deep connection again

June 1, 2023

falling asleep
writing music in my mind
what a perfect metaphor
what an inspirational line
the rhyme scheme, incomparable
the tune passionate, flawless,
and i promise to remember it
when my eyes open
once more.

what was it again?

…lost it.