how can some songs
slap me in the face with memories
that i never wanted to see
again
and yet
some songs feel like
the best bear hug
from a friend
you haven’t seen in
ages?
the comfort/misery line
is razor thin
[and sometimes appears in
the middle of a measure]
but damn, these songs still slap
music is so good
so important
so emotionally charged
and i
cannot handle that
[sometimes]
i’m always so inspired
to write music
when i experience music
good music
damn
is music
always
always
always going to be
going to continue to be
an important part of my life
music
fills my ears
fills my soul
fills my life
[or at least is starting to]
[again]
listen
to the same song
6, 8, 10 times in a row
memorize the words
memorize the favorite moments
(the parts of the song that make your brain go
‘brr’
)
and still adore it
listen to it some more the next day
and the next
and the next
until you know it like the back of your hand,
you could write essays, diatribes, theses about the song
and then wonder why it is
certain songs
bring up
certain time periods of your life
so viscerally
to delve back into
a former
self
i suppose i should use
and utilize
what i’m most afraid
of:
music being my strongest sense memory
i realize
that half the time
it is simply a chord or sustained note
that reminds me of a certain time
or place
or thought
or memory
but i also know certain songs
that hold those memories captive
like iron bubbles
i can see through
but they’re blurry
and i can’t seem to penetrate
unless i go fully inside
the song
so
i think i should
but i also think
i should do it
meditatively
with parameters
to hold the memories
and songs
in high esteem
treat them with reverence
and not abuse this power i’ve been granted
(nor rely on it too much
because i’m making new memories every day)
and what are the chances
that a song i listened to
a ton
in 2007/2008/2009
would show up through a randomizer in a little green app
[the visual memories aren’t yet here,
but boy is the emotional kerfuffle
strong
with this song…]
(what a ride that was)
kipventures 