October 10, 2026

i feel as though
i may be
an outside cat —

made of strong stuff
able to digest some of the
nastiest things
willing to take a treat
but wary of any sort of trap
that may take me
and able to make friends in the wild
but also able to bolt
at a moment’s notice

and kip is an inside cat —

on a special diet
longing for the outside
but staying indoors
all the time
finding enough variety from
room to room to
content themself
daily

or maybe, we are both
indoor/outdoor
and each have our own relationship
with what we have
and what we could achieve

or something…

August 19, 2026

a wave of a big sad
is threatening to crash down
upon me

and i’m just standing
here on the beach
waiting
waving back
not prepared
but still aware
it’ll hit
and then i may be
pulled
away
from the safety of the shore

[but i do love oceans
and maybe there’s something there
to explore?]

August 18, 2026

ok
ok
yesterday and last night
were rough
were
depression

but this morning doesn’t feel nearly as
helpless
lifeless
hopeless

i hope it’ll stay that way;
i feel on a razor’s edge
and either side of me is
despair

[but hey, i’ve been taking tightwire classes, so
i should be better both physically and metaphorically
at balancing

here]