September 27, 2026

very little sleep
each of us needing
something different

kip passing out quicker
when there’s noise
a show or a song or
something to cover up the
drip
drip
drip
of the inconsistent rain

and i need quiet
preferably absolute silence
or
enough noise to all meld together
into a wash of nothingness —
i want it to rain harder,
then i’d fall asleep instantly
but the drip
drip
drips get to me too
and the show or music
take too much brain and i
feel i need to concentrate

[how can i feel so sleepy
just lying horizontally, but the minute
there’s a distraction, i feel like i’ll
never sleep again?]

July 24, 2026

the sixteen beeps of the
nightly car alarm
that keeps me half awake from 2:30 to 5:30
when i give up and just get up

i’ve counted the beeps
but i haven’t counted the seconds between

because that changes

it could be a few seconds
it could be a few minutes

it’s just varied enough to keep
my nerves heightened

i think, if the beeping continued and continued, i may be able
to sleep through that, or if it was sixteen beeps, then sixteen beeps
worth of silence, maybe i could be lulled into unconsciousness through
the pattern, but this lack of consistency is what keeps me
awake

and in stress