July 8, 2026

writing has always been how i
come to terms with my emotions

even before i wrote poetry every morning
i would analyze things through personal essay

and even before i was intrigued by a writing major
i was writing-creating things
constantly:

scenes
lists of characters
concepts
a single piece of dialogue
just a whole bunch of names i loved

while those might not be the
standard journal-to-figure-out-ones-feelings kind of writings
i think they were my way of figuring things out
in my brain — lists to organize the chaos
constantly thinking in theatre
ideas upon ideas upon ideas

maybe that’s what i should do as a writing challenge;
find one of the concepts i created as a child
and see how far i get in the process of fully committing to it
and creating it
and making it come to life as a fully fleshed-out piece
[whatever kind of writing that may be]
as an adult…

that could be fun…!

November 28, 2025

perhaps i could make a book
based entirely on my
nonsense poetry

and perhaps it would get published

and perhaps scholars would study it
and wonder of the words i’m putting out there
and what they all mean
together

and i would have to tell them,
with a sorry expression
but still a devilish glint to my eye,
“my apologies, my guy,
it just means
nothing”

[and perhaps that in and of itself
would send the next generation of academics
into a whole new
tizzy]

November 16, 2025

but, should i want to write a book,
what book should i write?

should i re-write my first ever finished novel?
try to make it less about what i needed to hear
[and say]
at that moment in my life, and instead keep
the characters and their journey
and clean it up a bit
for a more
general
consumption?

should i try to finish up the novel i started
recently
with magic at its core
with a [relatively] scientific explanation

should i create my silly idea for a choose your own adventure novel?

should i write the fairy story of a person writing a fairy story
that they need
[and i probably do, too]

should i instead focus on play-writing?
or putting together a collection of
already written poetry?

i think i want to fall into a novel
like i did five years ago…

maybe that first option
really is
the way
to
go