hunger

December 1, 2024

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hungry for something
something that aches me
something that can’t feed me
but can barely
sustain me
hungry for the feeling
of feeling
sans hunger
sans want
sans desire
sans anything that could be conflated
as relient
on anything
or anyone

but

i can’t help but feel
a Palestinian child
with me
in my own hunger

and when i’m sated
at least physically
if not philosophically
how
is that baby
halfway around the world
doing
in a manufactured famine
in a dictionary-definition genocide

[are they still alive?]

May 3, 2023

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when my body lacks
one essential need
it tries so hard to compensate with others

the problem there comes in
when it affects my ability
to try to attain back that initial lack

so perhaps,
body,
you could let me actually sleep
those few more hours that i need,
instead of waking me up with hunger pangs
to try to feed my tired exhaustion
with digestible sustenance

just a thought.

February 28, 2022

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drive is not enough,
desire is not enough,
ambition/hunger/passion-
-not enough,
when you have anxiety
breaking you down at every step,
when you have depression making sure
you know
that visualization
is just a foolish trick,
and that hunger is simply greed
in a different trench coat,
when you have your own brain
waging war
on every want you’ve ever wanted
it’s not enough
to want
to set the goals
to be proactive at all…

manifestation
only manifests
if your whole being is on the same wavelength

so how
do i
connect
my
divisions of self?