calling kip’s heart palpitations
“the palpies”
has definitely made them
less wholly frightening
but now i’ve become somewhat
fond of them…
we would still like them to not happen
or at least
not be indicative of something even more frightening
than their mere conceptualization
and existence in
kip’s body
but if the palpies go away…
i think i may miss them
the pounding hearts
of palpitations
of stressors
or wondering if we’ll get back into our country of origin
ok
or
if we even want to
my heart has palpitations
not real ones
but those that come from
worrying —
if this is all there is
if this is what i was meant to be doing
if there’s something more i should be trying
if adventure awaits elsewhere
if
if
if
pounds my heart
faster
and faster
and i can’t keep up
unless i
take a moment
and
cry
kipventures 