April 18, 2026

glasses full of smudges
and scratches
and i want to find an eye-option
that i don’t find multiple problems with

it was never glasses
those falling off my face
and fogging up
and getting in the way
and always getting dirty
and always making me feel
self-conscious about the way i look
with glasses

and it’s recently not contacts
with the headaches when i spend
even a little bit of time
looking at a screen
and getting so damn dry after like 6 hours
and needing to replace them
over
and over
and over
and struggling when they feel
even a tiny bit off
in my eye
and the random blurs
that still haunt my eyesight

and it’ll never be
just
dealing with myopia
mine’s too intense
too advanced
too unable to see
literally
anything—not quite legally blind
but close, i’d bet, without some form of
betterment

is lasik even an option for me???

January 26, 2024

why are our plants so dusty?
why can’t i concentrate
on anything
but my own failings?
why is the puppy barking so loud?
doesn’t she know i’ve had a headache for days now?
will my nap
help any
of my focus/sadness/pains?

will the lesson later help my body
regain some of its magic
[maybe]?

[some questions for another rainy morning]