September 12, 2026

a beginning
the start of something
first day of school
and all that jazz

any new thing is nerve-wracking
is terror-inducing
is scary

even when excitement overwhelms
even when it’s likely to be all good
there’s still a bit of the self that goes
‘EEK!’

so here’s to going in with no predisposed notions
no expectations, just the feelings that i’m feeling
and a hope to stay in the moment
and take all that will happen
as it all happens

[it’s a super neat project
and i’m super stoked about the point and purpose of it all
and if everything goes to heck in a handbasket, which is doubtful
but i suppose always possible, i can always remind myself
it is just
one
week]

May 23, 2026

i thought i was busy
before working
five jobs
[six if you split up
the two i’m doing for this show]

and while the theatre gig is taking up
so much more of my time
than all the others
combined

it is the place i feel
most at home
and like i kinda know
what i’m doing

and i’m trying to listen
when my own guts
and the universe
say something

September 22, 2025

when one job
one gig
one life
gets in the way of
another job/
gig/
life
it’s annoying
it’s frustrating
it’s bad but it’s not terrible
because this is what i mean[t] when i say[said]
i cannot
stay in one lane
my
entire
existence

[so i suppose
this is the price
to pay]