February 3, 2026

seeing what i
do not want to see
and still seeing it
and still seeing it
and still
seeing
everything i’m trying to avoid
because i know
if i blind myself to all
bad
and suffering
and hardships
i’ll become
callous
and uncaring
and un-me

but there is a balance

there is a balance

there is always a way to live in compassion
but keep some compassion
for the self

[i just haven’t figured out my
own unique balance
yet]

May 12, 2025

working through what works best
for my distractable brain/
my undiagnosed, but probably ADHD brain/
my MaybeHD brain

finding new discoveries and tricks and impacts and randomness all the time

and it’s slowly feeling like
less and less of a lie when i
introduce myself and my needs as simply
“undiagnosed ADHD”