more driving
more music
more memories
more food
more family
[more time?]
(((…less internet)))
more driving
more music
more memories
more food
more family
[more time?]
(((…less internet)))
the joyful teasing
the conviviality of being around each other
the discussing
planning
problem-solving
the sharing, watching, playing
the family.
~~~
observation;
my downfall
[/upfall?]
~~~
can i
just
be good at acting
[on my own]
without needing such guidance
to stop overthinking?
[please???]
the difference
between
these two families
(i think/i observe)
is the feeling of being happy just chilling around each other
vs.
the need to be on/entertain/give 100% attention
(and i wonder why i never really parallel played as a child)
is the not knowing
whether or not
[family time]
will be a thing
this year
worse
than just not having it
at all
last year?
[yes.]