rib
out of place
again???

how am i supposed to do
anything
when i’m constantly scared
of fucking up
my whole side
by simply wrapping myself up
in ways i have already done
countless times in the past?

how am i supposed to do
anything
when my body doesn’t even know
how it is supposed to be
aligned?

how am i supposed to do
anything
when i never know
if this pain is bad
or simply residual
recovery
pain?

[pain is my sole indicator
that something is wrong,
but i never ever know
if the pain is a warning
a crisis
or simply part of being…]