i’m terrified
of everything

i’m terrified of living life
but i’m so terrified
of not

i’m scared of the united states government
but i’m scared of moving to something
new

i’m afraid of imperfection
but i’m always sabotaging myself
when i come even partially close
to something close
to perfection

if someone were to meet me
they’d never know that i feel
my whole life is run by
fear

but damn
i’m so scared
all of the time

and i will avoid so many things
just to avoid that feeling
[though it follows me
everywhere]

but sometimes i do things
even when i’m utterly
terrified

and they say that’s bravery

so i suppose that’s kinda cool…