December 8, 2025

kip playing with music
a whole set up here at our
kitchen table

and something in me wants to create

is it music?
am i ready to hear my own voice
echoing back from me
via vocoder at least?

or am i more in the physical scheme
and want to cut and trim and sew and see
what kind of creation i can make with
my own two hands

or am i finally ready to write that book
i’ve been threatening to write
forever and a half

or is it the video series
or a play
or silly skits
on social media
[probably not that last one
if my mental health is any key
or indication, having done so well
these past few months
without
that curse looming over me
via my phone…]

[who knows]
[who knows]

August 17, 2022

chill morning
chill music
moving info
both satisfying
and
frustrating
at the same time
[when/will it ever end?]

~~~

but my butt
hurts
when i sit in chairs
like a normal human
/
when i try to sit in chairs
like a normal human
and my body instinctively inclines itself
further and further leftwards
until my [right] butt hurts more
than it initially did
so i should just start
sitting
like the queer that i am
to avoid
further
injury

~~~

writing
in fits
and starts
(or starts
and starts
and i wonder where the fits
fit in with
this chill morning
of mine)