sometimes i will just breathe in
deeply
so deep
my back cracks a little
tiny pop pop poppings
traveling up and down my spine
from where the lungs are filling
outwards
and i cannot tell if that’s a good thing — like
i can expand my lungs so well
that it releases tensions in the bones — or
if it’s a bad thing, because
who else do you know
can crack their back
just by
breathing?
breathing
March 15, 2026
hold your breath
count to ten
and count to ten
again
breathing reminds you
you’re still alive
though you’ve spent your whole life
dying
to die
compose yourself
expose your insides
for art
for payment
for friendship
for funzies
for a dare
to anyone out there
who may feel the same way
[though it’s so lonely
in one’s own mind
it’s impossible to imagine
finding company]
wander around
while catatonic to the ground
and know
it’s all in your head
[which is somehow supposed to make it
easier]
[what do they know]
June 9, 2025
i’ve hit a roadblock
in my own lungs
and i can only theorize
about stress and anxiety showing itself in my body
before it gets to my conscious mind —
that’s the reason i can only take full breaths
in very specific instances
and never using the full capacity
of what my lungs should be
and i’m getting enough oxygen
[probably]
it’s just a little more than a little unsettling
to know i have more space for air
and to simply
not
be able to get it
November 5, 2022
clear out
the ick
the angst
the sinuses
the viruses
any phobia
clear it all out
and let me
breathe
fully
[finally]
kipventures 