March 4, 2025

i am a softie
made of choked up feelings
and barely hidden tears

and stories will almost always mist my eyes
but a thank you to a supportive partner
from a trans-masc autistic person
will straight up give me
the weeps

February 27, 2025

caught up in a book
in a way i haven’t been for a while
[at least not a physical book — we all know
how i feel about the locked tomb series in audiobook form]
but caught up in a way that
i can’t wait for my next subway ride
in a way that
i brought it upstairs before bed
and read
instead of dicking around on my phone
in a way that
i’m probably having nightmares about it
[it’s not that fun of a book,
but boy is it
engaging
like crazy]

August 3, 2023

so many books
on my reading list,
and each one
i’m so
so
excited
to crack open/
to get lost in the world/
to be absorbed by the story/
to learn facts and histories
and processes
that will make me rethink
just about everything/
to have a topic
to rehash with friends and spouses/
or bring up to folks
i think would love it —
and while i may be a faster reader
than a majority of american adults,
i’m slower than tortoise paced
when compared with
the human i live with/
who shares this house
full of stacks of books
for me to read/
and they’ve read them all
it seems/
so i’m trying not to get discouraged
as i watch the stack
grow
(for they show their love
by buying me
more and more and more
books)
but even with the tower
of my ‘to read’ pile
climbing much higher
than i am tall
(though, as a shorty,
that’s not hard at all)
i love books
so much so
that i can’t help
but still be
so
so so so
excited
to read them all

[eventually]

April 20, 2023

planning and preparing
are nothing when it comes to
insurance
human fallibility
and the twists of the fates

~~~

i use squiggles
[tildes]
to break the momentum
from one poem
to the next

but only in a batch of three
because formatting in devices these days
is far too variable
for a whole line

so i rely on my
three
little
squiggles
to [hopefully] signify
to both reader and writer
that this poem is over–
re-ready yourself
for a whole new
poem
beginning.

~~~

lost in the depths of a book
so visceral
so immersive
so taking-me-along-for-the-ride
i can’t decide
if this one is more stressful than the first
but all of these ninths
give me some sort of curse
of caring
and staring
long distances as i listen to them
audiobooks carrying me through the star-system
the big house
the river
and i just want to know
what happens next
what happens next
what happens next???