May 4, 2021

spent
most of the morning
searching for film/tv monologues
got nowhere closer to finding a *new* one
but maybe, just maybe, i’ve solidified the *old[er]* one?

are poetry parameters
really there if you force
your writing to become a
certain way just to fit it all
into a certain look or feel or
(isn’t that what rhyme scheme
/verses were way back in the old
days?)

anywho
i’ve searched
and read
and contemplated
and i should have been
writing and writing and writing
but at least now i get to
read and read and read
(though i do have a lot to do today…)

it’s morning!
awake!
stick those contacts in your eyes!
drink that full mug of coffee from the fridge!
awake!
awake!
write, read, edit, search, listen to you tummy rumbling
(i mean, listen to the curated playlist that app has going for you…)
break your fast!
drink more coffee!
do your morning things!
awake!
awake!
awake!

April 19, 2021

the sleep
of the deep dive
into the ocean of dreams
(is maybe too much of a metaphor for this morning)
because
i am used to treading water
half submerged
half awake
half aware
ready for the rescue of the alarm
to pull me out

but last night
even when i felt myself
in perfect treading form,
that might have been
deep
deep
down
because the alarms didn’t carry me
away