the head
aches
the legs
stiffen
the neck
creaks
and cracks
and then
the lungs lengthen
the sinuses stuff
and the eyes water
and all i want to do is be outside
and all my allergies want me to do
is stay inside a bubble forever
[or at least for the length of spring]
but it’s my favorite season
how dare how dare how dare
feeling like i just want to fall asleep
and stay asleep
at any given moment
of any given day
and is it depression?
is it the exhaustion of an
active allergic reaction?
am i just a little bit less
energetic
than the average
person?
could it be something i’m not even thinking of
yet?
or do i just want to spend my days lost in my own imagination land?
[and
could i bring that imagination
into my own waking
writing
life
sometime?
soon?
please?]
here i thought it was the
‘having an actual regularly scheduled job’
that was making the days long
and the nights
rough
but i think it’s actually this
unknown
allergy
type
thing
because it’s hard to be awake
and itchy and inflamed
and it’s hard to fall asleep
not knowing what your body is going to do to you
next
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