advice to myself

September 21, 2025

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ok
ok
you can do it
you can write
and you can teach
and you can lead
and you can sleep
and you can highlight
and you can act
and you can audition
and you can survive
and you can thrive
and you can get through this
busy busy busy day
where there’s so much pressure
that often tears you apart
but today is the day
that it’ll just scratch you a little
but the wound will cauterize
and then scar over
and you’ll be able to do this
over and over and over
until you barely notice
the weapons you create in your own head
that
prevent you from doing
what you want to be
doing

you can do today

May 14, 2025

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interestingly
i am not a perfectly moral being

and i feel like the few times i’ve
strayed
from the morality i’d like
have influenced me the most
in keeping kindness and honesty
at the top of my
values tree

[now why can’t my perfectionism hear that
and substitute in “mistakes”
and feel like making them
would just make my talent and skills
even
greater???]

March 24, 2025

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don’t let fear
run your life
or even tell you
how you’re failing —
the fear is there
yes
but you’re doing the things
anyway
on top of the fear

the fear doesn’t define you
it’s the doing it even while scared
that does

and that is badass

March 9, 2025

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pondering philosophies —
i wonder why i
seem to flounder when it comes to
strong opinions and staunch stances

but that’s just from the inside

if i zoom out, i realize
i do have a very strong morality —
a constant running baseline
that i live my life by:
kindness

and if i zoom out a little further,
i can see how living my life
with so much pressure and hatred towards myself
is in direct opposition to my main focal philosophy…
perhaps
perhaps
perhaps
i need to be kind to myself
in order to feel more like
the myself i would like
to be

February 26, 2025

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counteract imposter syndrome
with delusions of grandeur

battle bouts of depression
with moments of absolute elation

fight against the tyranny of a fascist oligarchy
with anarchical acts of neighborly compassion

if your ‘natural state’ is one strong thing
make sure to balance it with
a little bit of its opposite
[if you can’t make yourself mellow,
at least average it out to
even-keel-ness]

June 7, 2023

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the need to control
to know
to make the flow go
where you want it to
go
can only end in
disaster

you will know what you are in charge of
you will know what you can accomplish and cannot
you will know where your limitations are
where your knowledge leaves off
where your expertise
ends

let other people
know
decide
flounder if floundering is needed
(because sometimes to succeed
the floundering really is what’s needed)
if they are the ones in charge
then they are the ones who should take charge
and you
stay in your lane
merge if merging is asked of you
but only if you
can
do

the rest is left to the universe