perhaps
in order to avoid the trappings
of first-time writings
[the “mary sue” the self-insertion
the romanticized tragedy
the not-flawed-enough protagonists
and too-flawed antagonists
and cursorily researched science
and all things i’d judge or freeze stagnant
when viewing in my own writing]
i simply need to go after them,
on purpose even,
and indulge.
don’t let fear
run your life
or even tell you
how you’re failing —
the fear is there
yes
but you’re doing the things
anyway
on top of the fear
the fear doesn’t define you
it’s the doing it even while scared
that does
and that is badass
don’t craft
after
11pm
each creative has
different rules/
a different time
to ~stop~ by
but
the guidance remains the same:
there is a moment when
you are too tired to
cut/poke holes/hot glue/craft however you do —
decisions made when brains crave sleep
are never decisions awake brains will keep
[and some decisions are
more permanent/less fixable
than others]
the advice
i’ve recently received
is to try to achieve tasks
in threes
a never-ending to-do list
will only bring the vibe low
and with seemingly
nowhere to go
but three is accomplishable
achievable
doable
so, if this will help you
with your strife and life
of complex, minute details
of forever-long to-dos
let me impart to you
what was imparted to me
not too long ago
only
write down
three
and do those
don’t be scared,
be you.
don’t be safe,
be you.
don’t overthink,
trust your instincts,
be you.
this seems like positive,
encouraging,
enlightening
advice
on the surface
but then my
[overthinking]
brain
turns it all on its head
again
aren’t the scared/
safe
parts
part of me,
too?
is it just another
nature vs. nurture?
how i was born
vs.
what the trauma turned me into?
what do i do
who can i be?
i contain multitudes
it’s why acting
so why can’t i trust the multitudes
within me?
trust
let go
surrender and embrace
if you ever have a dog
with the dizzies
(the vertigo)
(the nausea)
(the old dog disease)
(the canine idiopathic vestibular disorder)
know that you can help your dog
replenish her fluids
with ice cubes
(or at least
it’s a little easier
than bringing a bowl of water to her
that she continually,
uncoordinatedly,
backs away from
in fear)
know this, so that you may be able to give your dog plenty of water
within that first 24/48 hours,
rather than being like us
and struggling for each droplet
in rubber bowls and silver spoons and white dishrags on plates
and not thinking of ‘solid water’ until
day three.
signed,
the kips
kipventures 