drinking coffee
to stave off depression
to stave off existentialism
to stave off the dread
that invades my very being
[but it actually helps the anxiety along
which isn’t great
so there’s that…]
drinking coffee
to stave off depression
to stave off existentialism
to stave off the dread
that invades my very being
[but it actually helps the anxiety along
which isn’t great
so there’s that…]
make your words like waves
gather them together
and wait
and hold
back
until they start to free-flow
into the next
unsuspecting
person
a line a line a line at a time
pull them under
take them back
with you
until you
spit them back out
at a later date
creation mixes magic
with science
and i think you’ll find
we’re all adept
at both
[if we just believe]
how do i tell
tomorrow’s me
to just go for something
without shaming
yesterday’s me
for not?
[how?]
[how?]
[how?]
i do still want to do so many things
and it freaks me out
and stresses me
to no end
to know i literally cannot do
everything
everything
every thing
in the universe
create a playlist
that includes your own songs
because who will love our own art
if not ourselves
first?
just
rocking out
to some ratatat
[instead of writing
these morning pages
like i should be
like i should be]
Kip making music
on an OP-1
on top of a wooden table
with metal bars
supporting
running across to where i rest my foot,
and even through my thick bootie
i can feel the bass rumble through
into my bones
and i love it
still throws me
that hypocrisy
doesn’t affect the gop
like
at
all
the plight of the whistleblower
is to have enough morality
that you step forward,
but to have enough tactical planning
to get yourself in the space to have the evidence
first
i wish
i wish i
wish i could be
that tactical
[or that close to valuable info]
but the moment i feel uncomfortable
morally
i either shout it out to/from the rooftops
or speed away in the opposite direction
[one of many reasons i’m never privy to any sensitive information]
i suppose i’m trying to convey that
i’m proud of anyone who can stay in a situation,
gathering,
without losing themselves
whistleblowers, you have my great respect
now if only your evidence counted for anything
in this clownshow of a government