March 2, 2025

March has come in
like the lion it is —
bringing one day of relief,
and then an evening of terror,
followed by a morning
where, once again, it hurts to open my eyes
outside

let’s hope it does
go out like
a lamb

March 1, 2025

i feel like i need to let myself write
Whatever
in the morning

i’m stuck in the process of
Morning Pages
to be about me
and Morning Poetry
to share with others,
but this habit is For Me By Me
so if i should, say, want to write a little script
or short story where
i have no idea where it’s going,
that’s for me to decide
[plus, i still have so many poems in the past
and i’m sure i’m going to keep writing
personal/postable poetry as i go,
i can take a day or so
to write weird maybe non-poetry type things]

[and perhaps
possibly
maybe one day
i may even
post one]

February 28, 2025

Full Economic Blackout.

[will it help?]

it will if We keep this up — end all excess spending
only buy what you need
and even then, try for small businesses —
search out companies you actually want to give your
hard-earned money to

it’s easier some places
and for some people
and much harder for others,
but even online, you can find
smaller companies
and alternates to the big guys —
see if a grocery store near you offers delivery,
for books, bookshop.org,
for audiobooks, libro.fm,
for gifts, try sellers on etsy
[bonus points if you find someone
and they have their own independent store]
use amazon as a search engine
and buy from elsewhere
[also, go ahead and fill up carts
just to abandon them, especially with things
you’d normally buy — huge purchases not bought
they chalk up to error/mistakes,
but smaller/normal-for-you sized carts
are counted
against
them]

so let’s do our best to fuck up the big guys
who are ruining the environment
and ruining employees’ lives
in the tiny ways We can
because enough small mosquitos can cause issues to giants

so let’s spend our money in places
We want our money spent,
and call/email/write/fax our representatives
when We can’t seem to crawl out from under this
humungous, oligarchical thumb

We
The Fucking
People

February 27, 2025

caught up in a book
in a way i haven’t been for a while
[at least not a physical book — we all know
how i feel about the locked tomb series in audiobook form]
but caught up in a way that
i can’t wait for my next subway ride
in a way that
i brought it upstairs before bed
and read
instead of dicking around on my phone
in a way that
i’m probably having nightmares about it
[it’s not that fun of a book,
but boy is it
engaging
like crazy]

February 26, 2025

counteract imposter syndrome
with delusions of grandeur

battle bouts of depression
with moments of absolute elation

fight against the tyranny of a fascist oligarchy
with anarchical acts of neighborly compassion

if your ‘natural state’ is one strong thing
make sure to balance it with
a little bit of its opposite
[if you can’t make yourself mellow,
at least average it out to
even-keel-ness]

February 24, 2025

quick morning pages this morning
perhaps even without posting
until the evening
because we got shit to do
this early morn’

[though i’d love to just be
sewing — apparently that’s my vibe
when the world gets to be
too big and too frightening

just do the physical
helpful labor
you know how to do]

February 23, 2025

make me an omelette
and i’ll bake you some chocolate chip cookies
and we can have some tea and coffee
provided by either of us
and talk about the world around us
and how it’s hard to let go of the idea
that one of us could be the one person
to bring peace
but we are not accidental billionaires
with good hearts
or the messiah come back
with the power of god
we’re just two human beings
who want to leave the world
a bit better than we found it
and the only way we can do that
is on a smaller scale
than originally anticipated

so let’s partake in this breakfast
and dessert
and the community we create
and leave our part of the world
and the people we meet and care for
much better than we found them

February 22, 2025

there are some things that seem like they’ll last forever
not just systems and parents
but paths to and from
places you go daily
weekly
yearly
and walls you wake up next to
and even the face staring back from the
mirror in front of you
but when they say the only things constant are change
they mean it
they mean it