to observe
without thinking to oneself
‘i am observing’
to react
without thinking to oneself
‘i am reacting’
to live life
without thinking to oneself
‘i am living’
these are the challenges,
the paradoxes,
of being an actor.
November 3, 2021
coffee
is the most important meal of the day
coffee
brings me joy in an otherwise too dark/too cold portion of the morning
coffee
is the time i get to spend with my spouse, writing in parallel, making up words and worlds right beside each other.
coffee.
November 2, 2021
all of the poems
that were in my head
have escaped
November 1, 2021
November
my birth month
November
the start of the race to the end of the year
November
the beginning of chilly weather without the distraction of spookiness
November
this time last year
i started a novel
and succeeded in writing a bunch
of it
every
single
day.
will i succeed again?
October 31, 2021
sunny Halloween
the most wonderful time of year
the spookiness will arrive tonight
(i’m sure of it)
but right now
i simply enjoy
fall
seasons
decorations
music
and
being married to a fellow spooky-season-lover
~~~
[it did,
it did,
it did arrive in the nighttime;
with so many costumes,
and flickering skull lights
casting shadows on half-buried {faux} skeletons,
and running out of candy
{eek!},
and sudden downpours
reflecting headlights in puddles on the ground,
and shuddering lights
which could be loose circuits
but i choose to believe
it’s our ghosts
traveling through the electicity,
and of course
our Halloween cat
chasing the ghosts
away]
October 30, 2021
i live a very inconsistent life
but
i need a consistency
(just a singular one)
in order to
thrive
(or at least survive)
October 29, 2021
opening up my heart
little by little
to these strangers on the internet
[what have i/will i have
done?]
October 28, 2021
doing so much
yet feeling like i did
so little
doing things
is all fine and good
but when it comes time to talk to people…
healing takes a while
healing takes a long long time
healing is about more than just ‘feeling better’
October 27, 2021
i keep writing
and writing and writing
and writing and writing and writing and writing
and i feel like i’m saying
just absolutely
nothing.
October 26, 2021
rain pouring
pounding
on our new (to us)
(though, in actuality, quite old)
(and yet not as old as the houses we grew up in)
house.
and clearly this little building has withstood
rain
and storm
and hurricane
and wind
and whatever else…
but it’s the big droplets on the a/c unites
that stick out of the windows
is really what
keeps me
awake
kipventures 