November 3, 2022

antsy-ness
will be my downfall

pretending i’m not sick
just so i can careen around the room
and exhaust myself
until i devolve into
a phlegm-filled coughing fit

why am i so bad at being sick?

November 2, 2022

i hate

hate

hate

being sick

time stops making sense

daytime naps and nighttime coughing fits

food tastes awful

but my stomach starves for it

the days take so long

but nothing gets done

and liquids

fluids

anything wet

imbibed continually

till my system’s flushed out

and i know

it won’t be over

tomorrow

ugh

October 31, 2022

A Sad Halloween

a wide lime green bowl
atop a crimson stool
laying in fun-sized-candy wait
at the end of an un-swept driveway

no human to greet
no calm dog to meet
no new-to-the-neighborhood welcome
because we are inside
up two flights
hoping to not spread our illness
with this holiday cheer we love

it’s the most wonderful time of year
but not for us
this year
not
for
us

(but hey, at least we can get
some joy out of this
silly-goofy
hyperactive
puppy-dog)
(and our lack of brain-fog)

October 28, 2022

a break
a gap
for multiple days
but
i’m not worried
in the way
i have been
because i know
i’m here
and i have things to say
no matter
what

~~~

re-writing history
is the way i deal with
days i couldn’t deal with
the morning pages
or mid-afternoon meditation
or evening ponderings…

simply take the time machine
of your blogging schedule
and post
in the past

(it’s surprisingly
easy)

~~~

(any more to say?)
[anything else to think?]
{or is writing
still coming back
into focus
after a few
days?}

October 25, 2022

ok
let’s see
if i like this new compy
if this keyboard won’t be as hassle-y
if i can get on board creativity
and be
the person
i’ve always wanted to be

~~~

yes
you guessed it
new computer
new keyboard
less doubling of letters
less loss of vowels
less struggle to write
in a way
that others would be able
to see
and figure out
and comprehend
and all that jazz

(oh no
have i relied on that
hassle
to not feel
personally
imperfect???)

~~~

but with a new piece
of technology
comes the premise
of a promise
to keep it up to date
and cleaner
and less crumb-y
and less angry
and i (hopefully)
will fulfill this
better
than in the
(very recent)
past

we’ll see
we’ll see