write
and write
and write and write and write
until you’ve exorcised all the demons
inside your own mind
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May 21, 2026
the pull to listen to
my high-school-age sound-track
is so damn strong
helping to direct a play
set in 2003
in two boys’ high school careers
and high school emotions
and high school coming-outs
[comings-out?]
it reminds me so highly
of my own story in
2006
the first love
[though mine did not last]
[thank goodness]
the self-hatred and
fear of the world
as you find your own footing
in your own community
[though my church was not a christian one]
even as that shifts to a different community
perhaps a community
of two
“we’re keeping it alive”
“what?”
“each other”
is one of the truest moments
i’ve ever heard on the page
and i hope it still rings so true
to a public audience
on the stage
May 20, 2026
The Citadel shouldn’t exist
not morally, but physically
towers upon towers of structures in space
constantly needing rebuilding and maintenance
just the right distance from the biggest wormhole in the galaxy
that somehow makes its orbit stable
[for now]
it’s been around for a thousand years now
and some towers have more modern technology
than others, and still others have weird amalgamations
of the old and the new,
and even more feel like they’re still standing
still resistant to the vacuum of space
through a hope and a prayer
and maybe some sort of space magic
we don’t yet understand
but The Citadel still stands
and it really shouldn’t, if you think about it
but no one thinks about it too long
because once you do, you wonder if it should exist at all
and once you wonder, you wonder if you made it all up
and it actually doesn’t
May 19, 2026
a poem
like any other poem
it has words
that convey emotion
that convey a point of opinion/objection/intention
to get across
to others
a poem
like any other poem
uses letters
known by other humans
and sometimes other humans
understand the poet’s
conveyances
a poem
like any other poem
is called a poem
because a poet wrote some poetry
at one point
and put it out into the world
[even if that just means
onto a paper
no one other than the poet
would ever really read]
that poem exists
like any other
poem
May 18, 2026
urban
exploration
seeing inside of the abandoned sites
other folks’ eyes just slide on by
but i want to see
i want to know
i want to honor and pay homage
or, if i can’t do that,
maybe make up my own stories
[what kind of adventure would i write
about a hole in a church
barely covered by a pair of
unlocked double doors?]
May 17, 2026
sink deep into the couch
close your eyes while you write
and maybe, just maybe,
something beautiful will come to you
something beautiful will osmosis into you
something beautiful will meditate into your mind
from the outside
and make its way through
closed eyes
and open fingertips
to the keys on your keyboard
and, magically, digitally, technologically
appear on your [now no longer blank] computer screen
that’s how poetry works, right?
May 16, 2026
hold on to what you know
let go of what confuses you
but don’t
don’t
don’t destroy
that which you don’t understand
[then you
become the
villain]
[and i hope
you don’t want
that]
May 15, 2026
perfectionism kills
it kills creativity
it kills enthusiasm
it kills hope
and it kills souls
[if only my own words had any impact
on the chemicals in my brain that scream
‘that is true for everyone BUT you —
you are the one person for whom
perfectionism matters
MORE, it is
LIFE
OR
DEATH
and you MUST BE PERFECT
to survive…’]
May 14, 2026
we celebrated
ten years
and then we celebrated
thirteen and then we celebrated
just being married and boring together
and i love our life here
with ups and downs
and stresses and calm moments
and so many sillies —
my kip is my home
and my home is my kip
and we are kips together
on the same team
[la même équipe]
and we always will be
with love
May 13, 2026
ten years
it feels too long
and not long enough
like we just got married this morning
but also we’ve been wedded for a hundred thousand years
i know you so well
and
i’m learning you every day
and i love this adventure we’ve got going
and just started
and i cannot
cannot
cannot wait
for tomorrow
and the next ten
or ten million
years by your side