vibing with the music
hoping to have something to speak of
something of which to write
to spite
the depression coming quite
quite
quite
quickly
Author: HJ
October 25, 2023
i wish i had a head for organizing
in an empty space—
to see what could come of nothing/
to observe the puzzle pieces as they fit
perfectly
together
where once there was void
i am of the kind of mind
that gets overwhelmed with too much choice
the minute you give me parameters
the minute you give me shelves and labels
the minute you give me a bag with sections
or a dishwasher with the levels and dividers
i’m great at fitting in
more than what the average person might fit
but i feel like such a fool/square/failure
to not be able to go from nothing
to something
i always need something
to jump off from
[this poem is not just about organization]
October 24, 2023
let yourself be cringe
let yourself make you cringe
it’s not just about not giving a shit
what others think
it’s also not giving a shit
about what you yourself
think about yourself
no one’s opinion matters
not even your own
just be
and be
free
October 23, 2023
the supreme satisfaction
when we hear from the front yard
laughter and admiration
at our Skeleton Self-Scare Party
[Halloween decorating:
we may be a little
later than we wanted
but at least we got it
and we got it
good]
October 22, 2023
puppies filling up a weekend
eating up all our time and attention
with worry
and laughter
and entertainment
and play
and clean-up
and comfort
and analysis
and all that puppy jazz
October 21, 2023
divided attention
[all weekend]
but our excitement for this Breakfast Day
is unbounded
October 20, 2023
at least spooky time is spooky
and if nothing else
i can look forward to
the vibes
these times
bring
October 19, 2023
i definitely feel like my concentration is a bit
gone
these days
don’t know if i’ll get it back
don’t know if i want it back
but i suppose
this is how
human-ness goes
~~~
how many times must i
write ‘how many times must i’
until it captures this tiredness
from life
and structure
and stricture
and strife
enough that i can leave
that openng phrase
behind?
~~~
don’t know if that poem is
exactly what i was trying to say
but hey —
i said it.
October 18, 2023
the desire to simply
sew
stitch
embroider
do nothing with my time but extend the things i do with my hands
it is strong today
October 17, 2023
i have so many questions i want to ask my Grandmama
and no opportunity to ask them anymore
(i desire stories/
multitudes of stories/
i’d take them from strangers,
but i really want them from
the folks i grew up with and
i’ll devour them whole)
kipventures 