why isn’t it more acceptable
to protest with
citizenship?
[i mean, i know why
logistically
but wouldn’t that be an interesting world to live in
if it was actually feasible to do so?]
Author: HJ
July 26, 2025
that was
the greatest part of my morning
the greatest morning
a cat on my lap
enjoying the scritches
from my left hand
and a puppy at my feet
leaning into me
enjoying the scritches from my
right hand
and though i got no writing done
and it only lasted about ten minutes
i was in a blissful heaven
the whole time
July 25, 2025
calling kip’s heart palpitations
“the palpies”
has definitely made them
less wholly frightening
but now i’ve become somewhat
fond of them…
we would still like them to not happen
or at least
not be indicative of something even more frightening
than their mere conceptualization
and existence in
kip’s body
but if the palpies go away…
i think i may miss them
July 24, 2025
i hate that i can find the good
in almost everything
[i suppose this ability is there
to balance out the fact
that i can also find the most dire part
of almost any situation]
[and that there is probably the reason why
i hate my positive outlook
so much]
July 23, 2025
how can some songs
slap me in the face with memories
that i never wanted to see
again
and yet
some songs feel like
the best bear hug
from a friend
you haven’t seen in
ages?
the comfort/misery line
is razor thin
[and sometimes appears in
the middle of a measure]
but damn, these songs still slap
July 22, 2025
j’ai espère que
je pouvais penser
en français
i’m fairly certain that is incorrect
damn close to gibberish
but the sentiment still stands
i wish i wish i wish
i could think
in french
maybe i could understand and speak it better
then
[was french the language my Mom studied in school?]
[could we have practiced together
if life didn’t suck so hard
in 2001?]
July 21, 2025
we are now at the state
of being home around a week
i’m getting farther and farther away from
being able to say
“i just got back from Europe”
i’m soon going to have to use terms like
“recently”
and then “last month”
and “earlier this year”
i just want to keep saying “just”
it helps with the fact that
my brain is still 100%
in Europe
July 20, 2025
scouring my brain for
an inch more
of something
to take the edge off
i know i can drop in
to my own mind
and adjust my sights/my thoughts/my realities
in order to smooth out my day to day
[are my natural highs
the same as someone else’s
chemical imbibitions?]
July 19, 2025
hitting that point of the summer
where my goosebumps and shivers come out
indoors
for everyone in the united states insists on
blasting their air conditioners as high
and as cold
as machine-ly possible
and myself
[and the earth]
am[are] the one[s] who suffer for it
July 18, 2025
my shirt
still kind of smells
like all the memories
made
in Europe
unfortunately
it’s all the mundane
or slightly grungy memories
that this scent evokes
walking and walking and walking
in shirts i’d already maybe worn twice
mixing sweat with deodorant
with sunscreen
with city
i washed this shirt well
put it through an extra rinse and everything
i guess when a trip gets into the fibers of clothing
it’s sort of like a city getting into your own bones
it just won’t go
away on its own
kipventures 