i want something new
something more
than what i have now
or what i had before

but i don’t know in what way

i just know there’s no way
i can do this day-to-day
without at least a teensy bit of
variety

~~~

man, my writing is just
not slapping like it
usually does
this morning

we all have off days
in every aspect of our lives
but why can’t i just decide
when my off days will collide with me?

[that wouldn’t bring nearly as much
self-education as i need…]

~~~

or is it not an off day
for the talent itself?
is it
instead
a perception problem?
is everything i read today
going to suffer from the
stale breadcrumbs of
‘this all sounds exactly the same’?
and
‘nothing brings me joy like it once did’?
and the other melodies of deep dark december
?