September flew by
in a matter of seconds
days filled with
stress and driving
and planning and writing
and arriving
in time to say goodbye
and the weeks between now and back then
feel like blips
made of minutes that took forever
and this whole month
took no time at all
Month: September 2023
September 29, 2023
(do i still need to approach each day’s poetry
with the goal of 300 full words?
have i gotten over my weird breaks in my routine?
am i still recovering from skipping
or am i finally free
to do whatever
pleases me)
(and is a 300 word goal
a pleasure
or a prison-box?)
September 28, 2023
an attempt at a poem-to-do-list:
-i don’t really know what to do
-how to write down what needs to be done
-it’s like in school where there was so much, it just melded into my mind
-and created a kind of static
-of overwhelming
-things
-to do
-to do
-to do
-so i did none of them
-so i did nothing
-and instead relied on television
-and podcasts
-to block out all thoughts
-not because it was inconvenient
-or because i didn’t want to face the reality
-but because it was literally too much
-for one human brain to handle
September 27, 2023
find your home place
of bookish nerd
and weirdo theatre kid
don’t shy away from folks
who don’t see you
as the 9-year-old you are
but show them
instead
how to connect with their own inner child
they may have forgotten
or abandoned
long ago
September 26, 2023
within my attention span
of music and words
and thoughts and patterns
and tiny details
and big big forests
i either see everything
or a static-y crumble of nothing
there is no in-between
September 25, 2023
at least i
can somehow make my
direst terrible feelings
fly
into beautiful words
and verses of pure emotion
while i sit by
and feel it
feel it’s
overwhelming me
daily
but in a few days/weeks/months maybe
hopefully
i’ll look back and think of it as art
September 24, 2023
observing the world around me
in a more base-neutral moment
as opposed to rainbows and bright surprise
as opposed to muddy depression eyes
objects seem to have less meaning
when i don’t imbue them with special properties
or haunting kinds of memories
they just are
September 23, 2023
a sleight of hand
a quick picked lock
and i’m accessing portions of my mind
i never thought i’d find
enjoyment
calm
confidence
creation
i do wish i’d found it sooner
but i’m so happy to have found it
at all
September 22, 2023
hungry
for bagels
for love
for knowledge i’m doing ok
for coffee
for sleep
for puppy kisses and cat nudges
for jalapeño cream cheese
for reassurance that anything in my life
is going the way it
‘should’
for expression
for quiet
for loud
for everything
for nothing
for something
something
something
[damn near starving]
September 21, 2023
bat sweaters
with bat-like sleeves
an indication of the weather
a sign of the times
[they are spooky]
kipventures 