was that flurry of days
when i felt aimless,
directionless, and gutless
simply the preparation for
the calm that followed?

(the calm after the storm?)

and was the calm that followed
simply the preparation for the
motivation and direction and drive
i’m feeling now?

is everything a predisposition to something
that will, inevitably, follow,
or is there something as real as free will
unencumbered by planets or gods or majority[/loud minority] opinion?